Tuesday, November 20, 2012


I sit at the keyboard, hands trembling. I am nothing but grateful for the practice of living out gratitude. Of writing out my blessings. Of calling out into the darkness words of light.  It's what's saving me right now. 

I sit surrounded by the lavish grace of God and His gifts, but I feel a heaviness pushing around me and I am trying so hard to hold it back, to not let it swallow up the goodness.

Here I sit, just days before Thanksgiving, and I am in awe of all that I hold.

But I am reminded in these past few days of the things that have been taken away.

And I walk this tightrope of emotion, and I feel my jaw clench from the stress of it all, and I hate this feeling of lack.

Lack of resources.
Lack of options.
Lack of time.
Lack of skill.
Lack of beauty.
Lack of recognition. (that one hurts to write)
Lack of Him.

And I go back between just wanting to hold my girls and cuddle and be filled with their infectious laughter and crying out to the heavens.

And I hear the whisper....

"For in Christ lives all the fullness of God in a human body. So you also are complete through your union with Christ, who is the head over every ruler and authority." 
(Col 2:9-10)



There is no way I can catch up in one day, so I'll just double up as I can....

071 - Brownies, warm in the pan
072 - Yankee Candles
073 - Trips to the Field Museum
074 - Phone calls that you have been waiting for
075 - Girls who make you beautiful necklaces

076 - The soundtrack to Polar Express
077 - Evenings with friends and coworkers
078 - Sam's Club
079 - Teaching your daughter in Sunday School
080 - A husband who does hard things

1 comment:

  1. I am thankful for you my friend, and that you are in our lives. We are blessed because.

    Love the Polar Express...soundtrack, movie, book, and train ride!

    Happy Thanksgiving! (we are going to my aunt and uncles'...appreciate the invite so much).