Friday, September 14, 2012

Ramblings





It's Five Minute Friday. On Friday we write on a specific topic. Five minutes. No editing. No over-thinking. Just throwing it out there. And then you encourage others. Always.

Today's Topic: Focus

And, Go.....

It should be easy. The sun is shining so bright that it seems to light up the insides of everyone nearby. I don’t hear the honking of cars, supporting the teachers’ union who has been picketing on the corner, so I’m guessing the reports are true that they are near resolution.


The weather is absolutely perfect. This is what I live for. This season. The air is crisp and perfect and I want to find a piece of grass somewhere with fallen leaves and just lay down in it as the girls play, little pieces of grass, and leaf, and earth slowly making their way under nails and woven in their braids.


I want to sit here and write, and let out bits of my soul. Bits of my heart. But I’m focused today on my to-do lists which are only growing in length. And next week I’ll be in a room full of talented people, and won’t I look so foolish? A fake. For a decent post here and there does not a writer make and I should probably just play with my girls and bake bread. That I can do. This, this every day writing? I don’t know what I’m doing and I feel adrift. I want someone to come alongside me who has been in these waters and help show me the way. Speak the truth to me. Challenge me. Guide me.

I want my words to be my worship but they don’t always do what I want them to and today is no exception. And all this writing is making me think more about who I am, and who I was, and who I will be, and if there will be resolution within us all.


My oldest comes by to remind me I didn’t give them their vitamins today. I tell her that it’s a good thing that I have her to help me. She just smiles and gives me a hug. I just stare at that face of hers, all full of love and wondering and joy. I tell her that she’s the best part of me. 



STOP

4 comments:

  1. Great that you are taking a writing class! And yes, fall, my favorite of seasons, when things start to slow down...just a bit.

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  2. LOVE. I love everything you write, its probably unhealthy or creepy or something. I also love that we share the same favorite season, though Florida fall is likely a far cry from the real thing ;)
    You are so talented and lovely, friend. I'm so glad I've gotten to know you.

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