Friday, August 3, 2012

Here


Here, in the morning, in this moment, there is just me. Here there are the flowers he brought home last night just because. Here the morning light fills the room and my feet are warmed from the sun baked floor, even this early in the morning. Here there is always room for coffee and my cup, this cup that a friend gave, is never wanting. Here the soft leather cover of my Bible and the fresh pages of Common Prayer call me, bringing up no mention that I forgot them yesterday and the day before.



Here there are no shoulda’s or woulda’s. Here there is no judgment or guilt. Here in this moment I’m just me, a child of God, needing only Him.

But as quickly as Here entered this space, it starts to disappear. I’m not very good at holding on to Here.

Soon the sun that shines in betrays the crumbs left on the floor last night, brightly highlighting them throughout the room. My phone beeps full of emails from teachers calling in for Sunday’s service and needing replacements that I just don’t have. I glance at my mug and remember how I forgot to check on my dear friend who just moved – what kind of friend am I?  And soon I hear the sound of the girls running down the hall for breakfast as I glance at my Bible, feeling it stare at me, whispering to me that it really didn’t expect that I’d read it today either…..Here is gone.

So I make a new here and try again. I hug my girls tight, here in the kitchen, whispering to them how proud I am that they spent the whole night in their big girl beds. And I feed them here at our table, listening to their dreams of fairies and Jesus. And I clean them up and put on their favorite cartoon as I tip toe out of the room, Bible and pen in hand to read and to write and to take five minutes here.

8 comments:

  1. I am missing that scene of Chicago right now. Your blog is a beautiful space. You are a very blessed woman, lucky to be married to an equally blessed guy.

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    1. Nancy, thank youso much for the encouragement! Your beautiful blog, creativity, and transparancy helped give me the kick in the butt to do what has been in my heart. Love you!

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  2. How beautifully you paint a picture with your words.

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    1. Jessica,

      Thank you so much for the kind words. Everything is still very new to me, so your comment is very much appreciated!!

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  3. Fantastic :) I love your five minutes "here" and I love that you've got your pen ready to capture five minutes more.

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    1. Thanks! And so glad to see that you've been blogging!!

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  4. visiting from Lisa Jo's site 'cause i'm blog hopping and trying to figure out what 5-minute-friday is all about. :) your "here" is beautiful. so much like my mornings . . . but what I love about this is that you created a new "here" in the kitchen with your family when your first quiet moments of "here" were interrupted. sometimes it takes all the grace I can get to move from one lovely, quiet moment into the next loud and energetic moment with my three little ones! i love how you did it and expressed it! thanks for sharing.

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  5. Thanks so much, Shelly! So grateful you stopped by to visit! I was able to peek at your blog....so lovely! What a great gift to both your family and to God as you share the gifts you've been given!!!

    I've really been enjoying Five Minute Friday. What I am finding is that as short as five minutes can be when writing, five minutes is an eternity as a Momma! It's a good reminder, isn't it?

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