Monday, October 11, 2010

Seasons of Change

There is something about the beginning of Fall that stirs me up and fills me with expectation. This September and October promised to be no different. But this year it feels that not only are just the seasons outside changing, but there is great change for me as well.

My wonderful sister officially moved out of her temporary home in our condo. While giving us back some room and some "normalcy" I do miss having her to laugh with and share with at any moment.

We had change in our small group from church. A second core family left which leaves us with a hole. My sense is that at the end we will see that this is the best for both the family and for the group, but at the moment it is a loss.

A dear friend of ours that we met through our group, Sandor - a 70 something Hungarian - discovered that his cancer had returned and spread. Within a three week period we found out, spent lots of time with him playing chess (well, my dear hubby did that!), said goodbye as he moved to Texas to be with his daughter, and then just four days ago discovered he had passed away. This weekend was spent at memorial services (primarily spoken in Hungarian) saying goodbye to a father figure and mentor to my husband.

So much change, it's easy to focus on how things die in our lives.....all these relationships changed - some permanently some not. But the process of fall is actually quite beautiful and without it, there would be no spring.

There is yet another change that happened this fall, and one that will most likely have the most profound effect on our lives....we discovered that we are pregnant with baby #3!!! So, come this spring, when everything comes back to life, we will be able to welcome another child into the world.

I am so grateful to serve a God who truly works all things together for good. Now just to keep trusting in the middle of change.

Friday, July 23, 2010


There are days when everything seems good. For me, things are good when the house is clean and most importantly, when the girls are clean. There is something wonderful about cuddling with two clean, good smelling girls. Right now my two clean babies are hugging each other being quite adorable.

There is nothing exciting or profound going on. I am just filled with this wonderful sense of gratitude. My girls are such a blessing. A good reminder to delight each day in what we are given.

So I am not going to think about the HUGE to-do list I have waiting for me. I am not going to think about the laundry, the dishes, the emails, the bills, or the errands. I am going to think about the sun that is shining in my windows, the silly faces Sophie makes, the hugs that Kat gives, and the time that I have been given to delight in all of God's gifts.

Friday, January 29, 2010

Starting Over....Again

You know it's a bad sign when you can't even remember where your blog is. Yup, I've been a bad girl about this. But I really do want to get better. I want to make it a part of my daily routine. And each time I talk with the hubby and he tells me how much more time he would like to have with the girls and how he knows the weight of providing for us is on his shoulders...well...I'd like to help ....

So today is the beginning of being disciplined. Of being intentional. If for no other reason that I love Adam.